In A Flint Crisis

What a difference it might make for the little black kids.
What a difference it might make for those in a crisis.
Shoutout to the Civil, Chemical, and Corro-sion
black engineers whose chosen focus is,
How to take negative to positive,
to improve the way we live.
Shoutout to the SIGs,
Special Interests Groups,
little communities full of people like you,
who are from where you are from,
who have a mind like you do
and who just want give,
back to society because we’re a society who knows how it is,
So FIRST part of our mission is,
encouraging you to be culturally responsible,
and so here my $10 is.
I take pride in my word and so my bond is
to the mission of an org that helped save me,
a little black kid.


So many things I’ve got to tell you,
and I’m afraid I don’t know why
I keep accepting bull-mess
to enter to my life.
Could this be love?
When I wish I still knew what real love felt like?!
Cause this isn’t paradise
These feelings can’t be right.
&& why can’t I find
peace at night?

&& Then there was

I finally found out with you there is no pain.
When you flow through me, no feeling is the same.
I choose to feel you, for myself, so I know my worth,
I’m here to make sure I always put you first!
Self love, looooooveeee

Many days I’ve longed for you,
wanting you,
when I really I had the power over you,
to feel your presence,
for your warmth, for your light, for your essence,
Many nights I’ve cried from abusing you,
I failed to realize that I was refusing you.
I now know that you’re real.
With no doubts, and no fears, and no questions.

At first I looked for you outside of me,
I now know you live inside of me,
The world looks so brand new to me,
now that I’ve found love.
Everyday I live for you.
May be a fight, but it’s til the death when it’s for you.
What I say is how I feel so believe it’s true,
You’ve got to know I’m true, Love.

FOCUS: There is duality in truth. 

Right now my focus on the facts are switching and I can see the changes.
I can FEEL the changes as my consciousness rearranges.

There is duality in truth. It is a fact that BAD HABITS are hard to resist!
It is also a fact that it’s beautiful when you find comfort in making better choices!

Life will be beautiful if you focus on the beauty of positive change, it won’t be a struggle.

Right now my focus is that type of beauty… That type of ME.
If you focus on your focus, shift and follow a guide to your destiny.

*Diana Ross voice* I’m coming out!



That’s just the way it is.
Things will never be the same.
#BlackLivesMatter is just a hashtag.

The value of our lives will never be the same.
Pleading to be worthy, to me is just insane.
Arguing that we are deserving never changed the game.

Hoping for mercy
in the midst of controversy
and though we are hurting,
you can’t feel the pain.

Compared to that feeling,
#BlackLivesMatter is only a saying.

If you see a begging man on the island dividing the street,
Holding a sign that says, help me sir, I need to eat…
Would you embrace him with a meal?!
Give him the shoes off your feet?!

Would you internalize #HomelessLivesMatter
and suddenly treat him with integrity?!
Even make feeding him a part of your responsibility?!
Whip out your camera phone and take a picture of your charity?!

Now think about reality
and tell me what do you see?!
Judgmental people who think like,
“He should get up off the grass and make a living just like me…”

No matter what the sign reads,
what’s INSTILLED will be.
#HomelessLivesMatter will – just be a decree,
for a begging MF that couldn’t get a dollar up out of me.

… and that’s even if his life really mattered….

&& That’s just the way it is.



Like I’m a Slave Master

When they say you don’t know where you are going unless you know where you are coming from, they aren’t kidding! According to Facebook, on this day five years ago I discovered that my great great great grandfather, Thomas Bond born in 1790, was a slave master that hooked up with his slave.

This totally changed my perspective on being ‘black.’ I often reflect on how my name in a translation means the Black Bond, the Black Unity. What a delicate irony that my name comes from this slave master! That’s literally MY family and a part of who I am!  I feel like it increased my openness and actually changed my perspective because it was the TRUTH. Period.

They have documents on​ that connected me to family trees who knew my grandpa and of course I researched each person’s version of what my grandfather’s family’s story was along with what pieced together for me. was supported with documents from each census dating back so many hundreds of years, with marriage and divorce documents, birthday and death certificates, military documents and even have slave documents (I can’t recall exactly what they were named, as this was now 5 years ago.) It was so real. So dope.

I am a mix of “the oppressor” and “the oppressed”, the coding that flows through my blood is a mix of that.  It caused me to ponder what was the fundamental message about that connection in my family and what did I think could be the culprit of such a difference between a slave master and a slave.  What could between the difference between two people that in the same token could unite and ultimately create me.

I think the culprit of that difference is perceived power. In my so humble opinion, I don’t think a lot of us take the time to really rationalize our irrational behavior/thoughts/feelings, we want to be right more than we want the TRUTH to be right and we become foolish.

There is this power struggle between what the real truth is and us being right, even if us being right sacrifices the truth. We cannot be so consumed with egotistical power that we rationalize a FEELING without any knowledge/understanding backing it up or impartiality to the other side.  That’s not the truth, that is an irrationally supported feeling because there was no research to discover the fundamental, universal truth.

The wrongness of slavery then and even today the low level of tolerance for people like me has so many VALUABLE lessons to learn from it. The one/group with the perceived power is not always right and their actions are sometimes completely irrational and have NO IMPARTIALITY to the other side. We ALL must hold a space for some kind of impartiality to the other side.

I think we need more self-evaluation and less self-righteousness. We need the truth to be evident. We need more positivity and influence.  We need more love and more unity. We need consciousness AND contribution.


Every Tribulation is a Lesson!

August 9, 2015

Somehow I tripped over a mistake that I thought I was prepared enough to avoid.
When I tripped, I stayed down and decided that the low I’d just enjoy
Now I see where I went wrong, just trying to enjoy the ride
It took me being pulled to the side to realize that I was no longer reaching for the skies

That foolishly trying to change the vibe of my environment,
Changed me, I guess I needed more discernment.

I am committing to my faith to the God in me
And changing my potential to be all I can be.
Sitting on these blessings has been a burden to me,
Bipolar behaviors and crazy anxiety.

I read that ‘crazy’ people often feel like a chosen one,
He was giving me all these beautiful ideas but I guess I lacked the confidence for every one.
They say don’t tell people your dreams because they will shoot them down,
All the while forgetting about small minds from small towns.

If God speaks to you, then you is all you need.
Don’t feel down because your lack of support from family,
The lack of confidence that they have is from reciprocity.
If you’re waiting on a bandwagon, you may wait forever, you see?!
If you BELIEVE in yourself, seize the opportunity,
And when things start to come to fruition, quickly they’ll be bandwagoners, you’ll see.

Don’t let the energy from others be a chain reaction,
Link up with others with the same passion,
maybe there will you find some satisfaction.

If you have a plausible idea then make it happen,
If you have a crazy idea, then make it happen.
If you have a simple, practical idea then make it happen.
Happiness is who you are when you make your dreams happen.