When they say you don’t know where you are going unless you know where you are coming from, they aren’t kidding! According to Facebook, on this day five years ago I discovered that my great great great grandfather, Thomas Bond born in 1790, was a slave master that hooked up with his slave.
This totally changed my perspective on being ‘black.’ I often reflect on how my name in a translation means the Black Bond, the Black Unity. What a delicate irony that my name comes from this slave master! That’s literally MY family and a part of who I am! I feel like it increased my openness and actually changed my perspective because it was the TRUTH. Period.
They have documents on Ancestry.com that connected me to family trees who knew my grandpa and of course I researched each person’s version of what my grandfather’s family’s story was along with what Ancestory.com pieced together for me. Ancestory.com was supported with documents from each census dating back so many hundreds of years, with marriage and divorce documents, birthday and death certificates, military documents and even have slave documents (I can’t recall exactly what they were named, as this was now 5 years ago.) It was so real. So dope.
I am a mix of the oppressor and the oppressed, the coding that flows through my blood is a mix of that. It caused me to ponder what was the fundamental message about that connection in my family and what did I think could be the culprit of such a difference between a slave master and a slave. What could between the difference between two people that in the same token could unite and ultimately create me.
I think the culprit of that difference is POWER. In my so humble opinion, I don’t think a lot of us take the time to really rationalize our irrational behavior/thoughts/feelings, we want to be right more than we want the TRUTH to be right and we become foolish.
There is this power struggle between what the real truth is and us being right, even if us being right sacrifices the truth. We cannot be so consumed with power that we rationalize a FEELING without any knowledge/understanding backing it up or impartiality to the other side. That’s not the truth, that is an irrationally supported feeling because there was no research to discover the fundamental, universal truth.
The wrongness of slavery then and even today the low level of tolerance for people like me has so many VALUABLE lessons to learn from it . Also as is with the struggle between Hitler and the Jews, the Gypsies, the Slavic people, Communists, Socialists, Jehovah’s Witnesses, homosexuals and more.
The struggle between Jozef Stalin and the estimated 23 million who died under his reign especially. Stalin was a horrible leader who led 10 million people to die and then ordered a great purge out of paranoia and killed 10-13 million more because of his FEAR that they were against him, which the people had a right to be leary of a leader who led 10 million people to die.
Between Hitler and Stalin an estimated 40 million people died. Power.
The one/group with the power is not always right and their actions are sometimes completely irrational and have NO impartiality to the other side.
I think we need more self-evaluation and less self-righteousness. We need an understanding that the only real thing is the feeling. Our feelings are the energies that flow through us. We are an expression of that energy. We need the truth to be evident. We need more positivity and influence. We need more love and more unity. We need consciousness AND contribution.